Sunday, March 12, 2006
I decided to post here, because I don't feel it necessary that everyone read it, and those who find it, are those who are wondering what's going on lately.
I'm not sure where to go from here. I have these nauseating feelings, that something isn't going right... And that I am continuing down the wrong path that I am not controlling right now.
Day in day out... Things such as work, the loneliness, the issues with my back, money money money money money... I am moving out in what, less than 3 weeks now... All this pressure is breaking me down. I don't have the money I need for this and that, thanks to prescriptions, things I need to get done (X-Rays, MRI, dentist bills) and the thing that is bothering me the most at this current second in my head is work.
I have this sinking feeling that something just isn't right... Ever since I got written up for next to nothing. Basically, our store has been performing just outstanding. Our numbers have been high, things have been pretty good, yet I get written up because a few things don't look the way my "boss" feels they should be? Come on now... But I am starting to feel extremely uncomfortable with my job and with as badly as I need the money that isn't good.
The thing that kills me... I can turn around at stare at probably close to $1,500+ worth of rare games and things... But I think I would lose it if I actually sold it all... I'm just trying to figure out what the fuck is going on anymore even I don't know and it's scaring the shit out of me. I mean sometimes I just don't know how I got by the past 24 hours with
- edit - Okay well I just got completely sidetracked for a half hour or so and there is a storm outside so I'm going for a drive. No need to finish the above thought.
I'm not sure where to go from here. I have these nauseating feelings, that something isn't going right... And that I am continuing down the wrong path that I am not controlling right now.
Day in day out... Things such as work, the loneliness, the issues with my back, money money money money money... I am moving out in what, less than 3 weeks now... All this pressure is breaking me down. I don't have the money I need for this and that, thanks to prescriptions, things I need to get done (X-Rays, MRI, dentist bills) and the thing that is bothering me the most at this current second in my head is work.
I have this sinking feeling that something just isn't right... Ever since I got written up for next to nothing. Basically, our store has been performing just outstanding. Our numbers have been high, things have been pretty good, yet I get written up because a few things don't look the way my "boss" feels they should be? Come on now... But I am starting to feel extremely uncomfortable with my job and with as badly as I need the money that isn't good.
The thing that kills me... I can turn around at stare at probably close to $1,500+ worth of rare games and things... But I think I would lose it if I actually sold it all... I'm just trying to figure out what the fuck is going on anymore even I don't know and it's scaring the shit out of me. I mean sometimes I just don't know how I got by the past 24 hours with
- edit - Okay well I just got completely sidetracked for a half hour or so and there is a storm outside so I'm going for a drive. No need to finish the above thought.
